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Thursday I went to the dentist which was fine, had my teethies polished which felt lovely! Popped in to see Fleur (my extra mummy) afterwards and had a nice long natter about bugger all! While I was there, Steve rang and said the Army changed their minds again and that he was coming home Thursday night. I saw my friend Cristie Thursday evening which was soooo lovely! It'd been so long since I'd seen her so we had loads to catch up with. Turns out I'm not the only one who has a strange, unexplainable crushes on weird people like Adam Sandler, Seth Rogen, John Cusack, Will Ferrell....erm....there was definately more as well. It's a weird thing! So glad I'm not the only one though haha! Oh! It was Vince Vaughn and Owen Wilson...haha! I'm not counting Zach Braff as a weird crush...I'll admit it, I like geeks haha!

So I stayed up aaaalll night Thursday, watched all the stuff I'd recorded on Sky+ and cleaned really pointless things which I'd already taken care of. Steve got home at about 6.30am, bless him. It was absolutely chucking it down and he was soaked just from walking from the car. Aaaanyway, we went straight to bed hehe and didn't leave it til some point Friday afternoon....when I think we only went to Sainsburys to buy junk food. Saturday was pretty much the same except we went out for dinner which we decided to do at about 5.30pm...we got to the resteraunt at about 8.45 haha! So, I think we were dressed for about an hour and a half the whole weekend lol. It was hot! Over dinner, we talked about our wedding and our kids and stuff, it was so perfect. I love that we talk about that stuff. It's so cool that we can sit in our pj's and watch cartoon network and nickelodeon all day under a big blanket and cuddle hehe.

Anyway, he's back in the UK til after Christmas now which is awesome. I'm seeing him on Friday and we're going up to his mum's for the weekend. So that should be cool.

I've got some modelling work on Thursday which I'm crazy excited about! I've never done it before so I'm a bit nervous but it should be really good fun. The photographer's a really nice lady so hopefully I won't get embarrassed or anything, not that it's anything dodgy mind you! I would not be taking any clothes off, believe me!

Right, I need to do some uni work and stop letting myself get distracted lol.

Steve's not back til Friday night now

til Steve's home! Yay! It was so cute last night, we were both in our beds all sleepy and talking on the phone I have to stay up all night again tomorrow (mostly so that when Steve's asleep like, all day, I won't get bored cos I'll be asleep too!) so I've been Sky+-ing loads of stuff to watch to keep me awake lol. I'm loving Being Erica and True Blood right now, can't get enough! Also, I've arranged to see my friend Cristie tomorrow evening which'll be fun especially as I don't think I've seen her since April! Looooooads to catch up on! I've gotta see Ben later on today, he's picking the dog up from mine...so that'll be fun. Not.

Oh, I'm gonna be doing some modelling this month! I've never done any before so it should be fun! Will keep you updated on that...

Erm.....oh, I saw an amazing movie last week-it's called Once. I'd recommend it to anyone, it's so nice!

I'm sure there was something else I was gonna write about but its completely gone. I think I'm getting old lol.

Smell ya later!

How do folks.

Well, I went out Friday night with my friend and some people from her work. They. are. nutters! There was this kid who was in my sisters year in school and he kept like flirting with me and as the night went on, he was dancing behind me and telling me he wanted to fuck me haha! I was like, erm......fuck off. (Drink makes me so much more abrupt!) He was really irritating. Luckily he left at some point a lot earlier than the rest of us. I seriously seriously needed that night out, getting drunk and dancing for hours to really cheesy music was exactly what the doctor ordered! I spent all day Saturday in bed which was lush! I wasn't hungover or anything, bit tired and that but my god, were my thighs hurting!
I sent in an assignement about an hour before I went out which I'm dreading the results for (it's shockingly shit) cos I rushed it and hated the subject matter. Meh, nowt I can do about it now!

I had an amazing talk with my mum last night about babies haha! I've been really broody recently (3 of my friends had their babies within days of each other and I always get broody when I'm happy lol) and was asking my mum loads of questions about like feeding and if your boobs hurt etc etc (I don't know much!) I told Steve about it and he was genuinely interested in what I learned! Haha! I love him soooooo much. We're always talking about having babies and stuff, it's so nice. Oh, when I was talking to him last night, he said he should be home Thursday night instead of Friday night-yay!!! I'm so excited! Only problem is, I'm on at the moment so fingers crossed my body is good to me and finishes before he gets back lol.

Anyway, I'm boring myself lol. Turrah!

Good very early morning dearios.

My man's coming hoooooome! He's in the UK now, driving down from Dover. Can't bloody wait for him to get here! Probably won't be til like 5 or 6 though...so tired, its crazy! I'm watching Jeremy Kyle, God knows why, just trying to stay awake haha!

Oh, I got a text from Haydn (Australian guy I was sort of seeing a few months ago) yesterday! So random. We didn't really end on good terms so I figured that was it y'know...he got back with his ex, I'm with Steve. I honestly thought I'd never hear from him again, not that I've been thinking about him at all...like not even a tiny bit, he annoyed me too much lol. So anyway, I asked why he text me and he was like oh, just seeing how you are etc-weirdo. I asked if things were going ok with his girlfriend, he said he was just plodding along really so I said that he obviously can't be happy else he wouldn't be texting me....I haven't heard from him since haha! Made my work colleague and I chuckle!

Oh dear, my eyes are seriously drooping, it's terrible. I keep debating whether to have a nap or not but knowing my luck, when Steve rings to say he's on the ferry, I'll be man down lol. I literally never know how heavy I'm gonna sleep! Fuck it, going for a smoke.

Anyway, I should shut up, I'm talking bollocks! Night (sort of) folks!

How do readers (if there are any lol)

Well, things have been pretty average with me really, been studying a lot-this course is hard work! We did the play Doctor Faustus by Christopher Marlowe which I really enjoyed but now I'm onto Cezane paintings which quite frankly, bore the crap out of me! Just gonna try and get it over and done with! My tutorials are going well though, had one last night where we were talking about methods and techniques used in art...I did all that in my last course so that was quite dull but it's nice to be able to have discussions about things, not just by yourself!

Aaaaanyway, aside from that, I've still got like two and a half/3 weeks until I get to see Steve, it's actually killing me. It wouldn't be so bad if he could text and speak on the phone like normal but on this silly exercise thing, he's so busy and there's no electric and stuff so I've mostly been getting one or two texts like every couple of days just to let me know he's alright. Although Monday night was funny, he sent me a text saying that when he's back, he wants me to wear a schoolgirl uniform and spank me haha! I'm TOTALLY game for that haha! I love that he just randomly comes out with stuff when he thinks about it! He sends me these really cute texts saying that he can't wait til we get married and that I'm gonna look really hot with a baby bump and stuff, makes me smile so much.

Oh, I've signed up to volunteer at the Samaritans! Got an open evening thing tonight to go to then should be getting an information pack etc then training in January, well looking forward to it! I just hope I've got what it takes to calm people down and stuff. I like to think I have (obviously or I wouldn't be volunteering lol) it'll be nice to do something to help others. I mean, I help my family out all the time but I think helping strangers will be really good. I'll keep ya'll updated!

I'm watching Atonement at the moment (haha) I love James McAvoy but everytime I see Keira Knightley, I wanna punch her in her stupid, pouting face! I'm actually boring myself now so I'll leave it there! Turrah!

Hey folks.

Not long been back from my very first uni tutorial and it was really good! I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would have been which was cool. Everyone seems really nice and wanting to meet up outside of class for study sessions and things which should be cool. I felt a bit stupid though as we weren't told to do any prep work or tasks before hand so I hadn't done anything but everyone else seems to have done something lol! Wasn't feeling particularly brainy! Anyway...that was a boring paragraph!

So...I saw my Dad's on-off girlfriend today for the first time since before last Christmas. When her and my dad broke up before Christmas, she said she couldn't see me cos I look too much like him or something which I understood but I was pretty gutted as I get on super well with her and used to spend a lot of time with her. I've been looking into an accountancy course just recently and she's an accountant and my dad must've said something about me wanting to do it cos completely out of the blue, she called me asking if I needed some software and stuff! I was round there this afternoon and it was like we'd never not been out of touch, it was so nice! She talked me through some accountancy stuff, we chatted, drank tea and smoked loads of cigarettes-just like old times! Her daughters a really good friend of mine (which has complicated things occasionally!) so we called her up and went out for dinner at like 6pm, before class started. I loved it!

Aaaanyway, aside from all that, I'm really missing Steve. I knew he wouldn't be able to talk much as he's on exercise and I got to talk to him briefly on Sunday night but other than that, I've had like 2 texts from him. I hate it! I just wish it was November already so I can see him loads. I miss him being in my bed and I especially miss cuddles, it's easily the hardest part about the long distance thing. I'll have like a really crappy day and just wanna lay on the sofa cuddling and watching tv but I can't. Sucks ass. I just think about when he leaves the Army all the time and we can be together properly-can't wait!

Right, back to studying haha!

Again, its been ages since I've posted on here! Terrible lol.

Soooo, I guess the main news is that I have a new boyfriend If any of you remember me saying about Steve (my primary school husband lol) then I'm sure you'll be thrilled to know that it's him :lol: Ain't he a cutie!

When he was back in the UK on leave in August, he came and stayed for a few days and we clicked so well. I wasn't really sure what was gonna happen and didn't have any expectations at all but it was amazing. I think this is the first time I've ever been completely myself around somebody and they don't hate me! We spent one of the days in bed then on the sofa watching cartoons, literally all day, it was so much fun! One of the best things is is that he's a proper tiger! The first time we slept together (which was like the first night :lol: ) it was soooooo good and so much fun! He makes me laugh so much, it's crazy. We were like, full on making out...in our pants and I was on top of him kissing and stuff and he suddenly came out with "cool, are we gonna have sex?!" Oh dear god, I was in hysterics!

He's been back twice since then, only for long weekends but I'm just so happy when I'm with him, it's amazing. I met his mum and step-dad a couple weeks ago, they're really nice. His friends are funny, I kinda recognised them from years ago but wouldn't have known who they were then. We got drunk with them and did some terrible skateboarding! He's back again at the beginning of November which'll be cool cos he's doing a six week course over near Bournemouth so I'll get to see him loads and stay on the base and stuff then he's got three weeks off for Christmas and we're going to Edinburgh for, I think, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and Boxing Day which'll be so good!

I suppose I'd better say about the other guys. Haydn just fucked me off-was calling me constantly asking what I was doing and stuff, really pissed me off. Si and I just kinda fizzled out. Think we were just both a bit lonely and bored for a while. Ben and I have struggled to get on, he's been telling me he's missing me and stuff and that its really hard for him to think of me with someone else. Anyway, he went out Saturday night and his ex was out (she's fooking ugly!) and they ended up kissing in a bar. Anyway, I think it's kinda helped him get over me a bit so we've been getting on a lot better the last couple days. We're going to a gig together on Thursday (Idlewild-YAY!) so we'll see how that goes. Hopefully we'll be alright.

My English course has started again. Oh, I got top marks for my last course-how cool is that?! My Dad said he was proud of me which was really nice to hear! I've got proper tutorials for this course which is nice cos I'll know if it's only me who's struggling! There's a shit ton of work-looks really really hard but I suppose that's the idea of a degree :lol: I vaguely know one person on my course already which is cool. A girl who I went to school with's husband is doing it, he seems alright although I've never had a conversation with him. Got the first tutorial tomorrow so fingers crossed it all goes ok!

Anyway, seeing as I'll be spending a lot more time at my desk, I'll probably need the distraction of blogging so I'll hopefully keep this better updated!

I've FINALLY finished my first uni course!! I'm so happy! Fingers crossed that I've passed but I won't fin out until Septemeber..ugh! I'm thinking a few beers are in order tonight for sure! Just need to decide which course to do next but I think I'll look at that tomorrow I'm thinking about doing a criminology course as I think it would be interesting...besides, Shakespeare will be covered in the main degree so I can afford to do something different now

Oh! I got a really lovely surprise on facebook the other day! My very old friend Steven added me! We used to "date" in primary school and according to him, we got married haha! We've been having the best conversation, digging up and laughing at old school memories, it's been amazing! He's in the Army these days which I never would have expected, bless him! Such a cutie!

I'm looking at different jobs at the moment. Where I work now is really inconvienient so I'd like to be closer to home. Plus, I'm looking at maybe my friend and I getting a place after my holiday in August...but we'll see. I need to get back out of my mom's house, it's driving me crazy! I've turned into a modern day Cinderella but without the Fairy Godmother...or Prince Charming (for now ) Slowly working on that part though...although I don't know which Prince to go for haha!

Ben's still kind of on the scene, we've said that we'll see how we get on on holiday then maybe completely start over once I've found somewhere else to live. So that's that...I don't really know what's going to happen but I don't even know what I want really. Then, there's Haydn (cute Australian guy) who's amazing and gets me and is crazy sweet and fun but lives in London...I can't say I'm a massive fan of long distance things, I get too horny haha! And then! There's Simon...we're basically just fuck buddies but he keeps telling me he wants more and to be honest, I don't think I can see myself with him. From the start, I just saw it as a bit of a laugh, he's a danm good fuck and we have a laugh but well, I think he's more into me than I am him...does that make me a bad person?! I hope not!

Hey folks!

I've been trying to think what's been happening since my last post! Feels like forever ago!

Ben and I have split and I've moved into my mom's for what I hope will only be a short amount of time, she drives me crazy! I decided that I'd had enough of our relationship really, we weren't happy and it was crystal clear that he wasn't gonna do anything about it. We're still on really good terms and have actually had a better time together since we split! Very odd. We're going to Portugal together in August (that was obviously planned before the split!) so I guess we'll see. I kinda feel weird without him...I didn't miss him at all in like, the first few weeks, I really think I needed my own space but as time's gone on a little bit, I feel kinda crappy when I don't see him. Old habits die hard though right? Very confusing emotions! I'd like to think we'll get back together but a LOT of things would have to change...I won't go into it now because it's almost one in the morning and I'm already talking shit!

Hmm...oh yeah, cute Australian guy! He's cool, we're still in touch and stuff. I went upto London and saw him in May I think it was (jeez, thats gone quick!) but he's pressuring me into having a relationship and I'm not cool with that right now. He's super cute and sweet and funny and stuff and literally perfect boyfriend material but 1) I don't have time for anything right now 2) I hate long distance and 3) I don't know what's gonna happen with Ben yet and I don't wanna start something when I don't know what's going on!

I'm at the end of my uni semester now, mailing my final assessment tomorrow...providing I actually finish the bloody thing in time! I'm pretty much there I think, I just keep letting stupid things distract me...like facebook, writing on here, cleaning things which are already clean, moving my things around....I'm not the only one who does literally anything to get out of school work right? Haha!

I think I'm pretty much upto date on the important things so I'm gonna get some sleep before I really start rambling about crap!

Sweet dreams